So I've been having a personal battle that I've been dealing with. While sitting in my support group last week I realized that I have worked to hard and have spent so many hours in prayer to allow myself to backslide and allow myself to return to my old lifestyle & habits. By that I mean I used to think I was living as a Christian just because I believed in God and did a few good things when it was convenient for me. However, my actions did not always match up with scripture. Going back to my old ways would be like taking back all the praises I gave God for seeing me through all of the hard times. Like not being grateful for the new friends I have made who are uplifting and who encourage me in my daily walk.
Many are called but few are chosen because they do not choose Him. Now that I have really chosen to seek God & want to have His will done in my life and not my own, I feel like I'm being attacked by the enemy more than ever before. 1 Peter 5:8-10 says, "Be self-controlled and alert. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that your brothers throughout the world are undergoing the same kind of sufferings. And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast." Satan seeks to destroy the anointed. He ignores those who's flesh will destroy them anyway & he attacks those who's hearts are set on God and want to do Gods will.
David never had a problem until he was anointed. After that he became a target of the enemy. Trials and tests will come to those who seek to do Gods will. I'm being tested left and right it seems. Even though it's hard, I know that God has his hands on me & is very aware of everything happening to me. Everything that happens is filtered through Gods hands- life, death, blessings, curses, etc. Satan has to ask Gods permission before he does anything to you. I feel God is in heaven, looking down on earth & saying, "Satan. That is my servant, Angela. Go ahead and throw anything you want her way. She is my baby girl and nothing you do will shake her."
James 1:2 says, "Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance." The trials and tests that come my way let me know that God sees me as a strong woman of faith and only wants me to continue to grow stronger in Him daily. I believe going through difficult times means God has something more amazing in store for me than I could ever imagine. I may be getting pushed from all sides and it may be hard at times but I will not back down. I will stand through the storm for I am a part of Gods army and no one in Gods army is on inactive duty for the work is never done until he calls us home.
I continue to cling to these 3 things....
All is well.
All will be well.
The best is yet to come.
